The beauty of children...you'll never find anyone that loves you like a child does.  I can be at an all time low..feel like there's no joy left in my life..and this joyless prospect can be stretched out to infinity in my minds eye...  And then, Meriel hugs me..or smiles at me..and NEEDS me.  And I know I can live through another day.  I get the same from Ellie Dean.. and my other children.  They will always love me..and I will always be "someone" in their eyes.  I'm so lucky to have them.