3 days  until the Thanksgiving holiday.  I'm feeling ambiguous about it this  year.  Usually, I look forward to this time...the family time, tons of baking, cooking, visiting, and just generally enjoying fall in all its dimensions...football, crisp weather with crystal clear blue skies, indian summer, fall colors, ..just the feeling fall brings is great.  But this year I'm just... well.. I guess I feel more like an observer than a participant.  I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way.  Maybe because the past  year has been a huge year of change for me.  There's been so many dimensions to that change that I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with it all.  I can't begin to articulate it all...too much..too big.  Anyway... so this year I don't know what the holidays are going to be like.  I guess I'll just "hide and watch".