I have to write something about my birthday.. originally I wasn't even going to mention it here.. but yesterday turned out to be filled with loving, pleasant affirmations from the people around me and it means more than I can express with words.

I had a really bad night Wednesday night...couldn't sleep because my mind wouldn't shut down. Finally I slept but woke up in the morning very depressed and feeling awful about myself and all my short comings, mistakes, weaknesses.  AND..to add to it all..my 40th birthday had arrived which I've had a lot of trepidation about.  Anyway.. I didn't want to get out of bed let alone go to work and talk with anybody.  However..I did get out of bed and I did go to work...and I'm glad I did.  :)

I decided to send flowers to my mother because I always reflect on my birthday how much I appreciate her for bringing me into this world and giving me so much through my childhood. Friends made sushi for me at home and I received a singing telegram and flowers!  What a surprise!  The highlight of my day, however, was my dad calling and saying he was coming over to watch a football game and asking me to bake him a pie..."a pecan pie", he requested.  :D  Of course I couldn't refuse and really.. I can't think of a better way to spend my birthday than appreciating and associating with the people that have given me so much through my life.  I slept well last night...and woke today much more encouraged.